may i be a better me.

i don't really know how to start this post, really. should i start with english or indonesian ? should i actually write this post or not. yeah, i'm entirely having a confusing moment.

well, i guess i should. i'm feeling terrible because of my behavior lately. ok lets change to indonesian now.

i'm not really good at english .

jadi, rasanya emosi yang keluar dari diri shofa itu lebih ke negatif. dan shofa makin nggak peka terhadap orang orang disekitar shofa. bahkan saat shofa sadar kalo sikap shofa ini salah, shofa nggak bisa membuat sikap jadi lebih baik? ngomongnya nyeplos. tanggung jawab juga kemana. 

but i will get better just as the time goes by. i have to. i wont be that girl going around, wasting her time to make some people feel bad. right?

wish me luck. may i be a better me. not worrying little things. nggak gampang bete. listen to other people. tambah peka. bisa jaga amanah. tanggung jawab. jujur. amin :)

my sweety seventeenth birthday

ok, this post supposed to be written a month ago.

i wanted to make something like a video about my birthday and thingy other things, but it just won't happen, and this is me wanting to share my last birthday. :p

so here we go, it was happen in 1st of may 2012. i turned 17. i didn't feel anything, a number is just number, and its not very accurate to measure my life. but i was wrong, maybe i thought about it that way and for some reasons i wanted to stick with it. but that day only come once in your whole life. so dont ruin, i said.

i got soo many wishes that day, and i was suprised. because im not that aware of others birthday haha a bad friend i am :p but thankyou for all of you wishing this and that and may it all come back to you in a proper time :) theres some texts, some tweets and some messages like in envelopes-message-kind-a-thing. i really appreciate all of that, because when i want to do it, it is never easy for me to get it done :p lazy, lazy, me....

ok now i mightve make this a boring post because i start to put things in one post! i hope you dont mind, because this is still a part of my birthday.

so, my best 9 suprised me with this awesome cookies !

these are the awesome photos :*

and then after that day, we went to margo city and take some awesome photos. more :p
@ sagoo kitchen

and then, yeah, i wish you a great seventeenth birthday too :) may Allah be with us all

you, are a bond that no one else cant do :)

abang is what i normally call him. yeah he is a brother. but it means more than that.

he grew up with me, and unconditionally make me like me now.

so here is the text. you were, are and will be a brother. you're a brother i'm a proud of. you're a brother i adore. you're a brother i'd idolize with everything you do. i'm not going to say that everything you do is right. its a thing that i cant judge. but you are you. you are fun as you are. the way you make me want to yell at you and the way you start to mad at me because i was independently speaking. the way you drive moms car, and how you make me think that its a fortune to have a brother like you :)

keep shining bright. may the good be better and the bad gone :]

i already have your permission :p